Would this bother you? part 2

After the fire try to get along as best as can. Time keeps going by and still do not have wires up for electric.  Running off extension cord from shop.  Ceiling and insulation not in.  About fry to a crisp this summer when 100 and 110 out.  Heat coming through roof feels like a furnace. You get through that.  Then this winter you about freeze to death.  Water freezing in dog dishes in the house in the living room with the wood stove.  You say something to husband and all he says is it is cold outside.  (you notice husband not using bathroom when comes home)  (believe me that toilet was an awaking experience.)  But before this the icing on the cake WAS....  In summer when very very hot out the well pump went out.  He called well guy and they came out and pulled out old pump.  Everything gets done and you ask husband about it and he says was 1100.00.  I ask is he going to take payments for it.  He said he wrote a check for it.  I am like what we do not have 1100 in the checking account. He says going to add to the loan at bank.  You think stupid because they always charge fees and things.  (the fees do not bug him when adding to loan but when you want windows it is too expensive) He goes up next day to bank and adds to loan.  You have to go up and sign later. (check already written and bank will put it through then I figure would be minus even more and not able to pay bills)   You do not have a truck or anything to drive so you have to depend on 87 year old mother to take you.  You do not like having to make mother wait any longer than have to plus you do not like leaving dogs.  So you hurry in and sign without looking.  Then couple of months go by.  Your husband has a heart attack.   Has to have stint in.  You feel kinda sorry for him and try to get along.  Then right after that people come out and doing some measuring on shop/garage.  Same people who roofed house.  You ask your husband what is going on.  He says going to reroof and side the shop.  (with metal.  remember too expensive for house)  I ask how are you going to do that?  He said add to loan.  I am YOU are going to add more to the loan!!  (had loan when got married over 11 years ago and paying for 11 years and owe a lot a lot more than did 11 years ago.)  He said he already added to loan.  He added an extra 8500.00 to loan when he got loan for well pump.   Did not tell me and not said one word in several months.  He got new siding, roof, windows and doors.  I cried off and on for 2 days I felt so bad.  I knew he will only ever care for himself.  Then after they go done working it cost 2000.00 more than estimated and he had to get a loan for 2000.00 more!!  I asked the bank if I could sign saying under distress or what ever called they said just make clear to him you are not going to sign anything else.  Only thing I really have no rights.  I have to worry about dogs and I being forced and kicked into streets.  I would sell a cow or horse but his family will try to cause me trouble say I am stealing..  His sister does not pay the bank payment or taxes does not pay for hay or food but she supposedly  owns everything!  My husband is too much of a wimp to stand up to his family so he seems like he has done everything to make me a prisoner.  Now he just acts like lord of the manor.  He always acted like he was putting up with me.  (I admit I do not clean like I should.  Sometimes I think I should I clean his mansion??  I use to clean better and keep up more.)  (I still do laundry and fix his lunches for work get his breakfast and supper fill up his water glass.)  (I did feel like not very many people would put up with dogs.)  I will admit I like being close to my 87 year old mother and disabled brother.  I also have a lot of dogs.  Was able to buy out a kennel.  I have retired them and had fixed.  He (let) me get dogs.  I think he knew would make more of a prisoner.  I had pretty much decided to leave before this.  Even if I had to live in my truck.  He wanted dogs more than I did.  (I love my doggies and will not just sluff them off).  I keep thinking I can make it until the doggies all pass away.  But now I am not sure how much more I can stand!!!  I have been trying to find some land to buy on time and an trailer house or rv.  Anything so the dogs and I can get out.